Awake so early . 

Today my heart hurts. 
I have a week left. 
I don’t want this to end. 
Hold onto me big island. Don’t let me go. 
I was unsteady now I’m grounded. 
I was lost in faux. Now its all real. 
I was alive but hardly living. 

I like my feet getting cut up from walking over volcanic rock to get into the ocean.

To have my kona cold brew all day long.

I like a dirty truck from off roading and the seat wet from surfing in a bikini.

I want to pick the Wax melted into the truck bed.

To see a Turtle popping up when your paddling into the waves. Or a whale in the distance breaching! 

To go to sleep early to wake up early for the moonset. 

To drive a little way and see multi terrains and hike off the beaten track to find that waterfall! 

To do yoga while the sunsets and shavasana below the coconut tree that may just drop one if the wind picks up. 

I love not wearing makeup and my hair salty all day. 
To wear one layer only and to be barefoot. 

To smell buds in the air, so sweet!

I love pidgeon, it makes me smile! 

To eat poke bowls doesn’t get any better!  

I love waiting for a green flash and if not just the sky to light up so pretty, perfect endings everyday.
I love the Aloha on this Island. 

I love that it feels like home. 

I love that I love so many and feel their love. 

I love ocean. 

I love the sunshine. 

I love the big island. 

I will miss you. But I have a sneaky feeling I will be back! 🙏💙🌊



Reality has hit, or maybe just facts have hit. As I’m living my reality but This step is coming to a close. 

So my life changed, I changed, my world changed 6 months ago. Everything I thought would be is now not. But it’s so much better.

I’m happy, I love life, I have passions, I love my self, my values have changed, my goals are different and ideals are new. 
I’ve met people and connected everyday. 

I’ve met people I will never forget. 
People that made my jaw drop or tears flow. 

I’ve fallen in love. 

I’ve been heart broken. 

I’ve met people who made me realise who I am.

I’ve met people who will be in my life for always and those who will be in my memories. 

Those who made me better and those who Showed me what I didn’t want to be.
I’ve learnt what Aloha really is and that it truly is more than a word. That peace, compassion and mercy are within us all, and it is our choice to live and love with that in everything we do! 

I’ve learnt the power of the universe. It gives you what you need, when you need it but to be careful what I ask as something’s came to bite me in the ass and give me a slap in the face to remember! 
I know a small direction my journey is taking but as far as my future I have no idea. I do know I will be ok, that I just now take the next path and that if it’s meant to be I will end up back where a big piece of my heart will be waiting. 
I believed in the universe but now I trust in it. 

I believed I had to try to be something different to me but now I believe in me. 

I believed I couldn’t but I now know I can. 

I believe my life has synchronicity and order and that I am in the right space at the perfect time.